"When Mountains Alone Can't Heal" was a massive project, which took about two years to complete. You would think that after I was finished, I would be delighted. Instead, I felt lost and confused. Now what do I focus on? For those of you who have read my book, you know the, "What is the meaning of life?" question pops into my head quite often. Having the writing and editing process of my book to focus on helped elevate such thinking. However, once I was done, that nagging question started pestering the inner workings of my mind.
Months later, I became annoyingly depressed. Here we go again, I thought to myself. However, for Christmas I received the book, "The Happiness of Pursuit" by Chris Guillebeau. I will not go into too much detail about the nature of this book, I'd rather you read it for yourself. The gist is that humans are happier if they have quests. Quests give life a sense of purpose and excitement. Within the first few pages, I already determined what my quest would be: To reach the top of the highest point in every state in the United States of America. This expanded into the following quest: To stand on the highest point in every state (must hike or climb, no driving to the top), to enjoy a meal in each state at a local restaurant, and to participate in a spiritual activity (i.e. visit a meditation center or go to a recovery focused meeting) in each state.
Why would I want to do such a thing? Well, why the hell not? I could sit around and analyze why such a quest would be self serving and does not benefit anyone, but the fact of the matter is, is that when we do things that make us feel more alive we are more pleasant people to be around. So, in essence it does benefit others! I chose this quest because I have a passion for climbing mountains, being outside, exploring, and growing spiritually. I decided to include the meal aspect of it to better support my recovery from an eating disorder. Having to enjoy a meal at the end of each hike, walk, or climb would ensure that I wasn't choosing this quest to burn calories and lose weight. Rather, I would be doing this because it is in alignment with my personal values and interests. Lastly, I decided to do this because I am attempting to eradicate all drugs and alcohol from my life, so why not be as high as possible on the top of a mountain (or a hill in some states), while being sober? Hope you enjoy following me on this journey. Perhaps it will be my next book.